I accepted Jesus to be my Lord and personal saviour in 1997 after my elder brother Richard together with his friend George preached to me the Good news of Jesus.
Through my journey of walking with Christ, I starting to experience and acknowledge the love of God in my life; over the years I came to know Jesus and the Holy Spirit but I was never sure about Father God! I found that, although I could worship and understand Him, I didn’t love Him as I felt the first commandment was telling me to do. In fact deep in my heart I felt He was far-away and that I would never make Him closer to me!
I found myself regularly descending into what I now realise was mild-depression; I would be relieved when I could pull myself together and feel that no-one had realised what was going on, the mask was firmly in place again and I could carry on.
In His mercy and completely unexpectedly, in 2008, God opened away for me to attend the International School of Ministry at the Wings of Eagles School of Ministry Lox lane Christian Centre Shaftesbury Dorset UK.
During in one of the soaking session we had; I clearly heard an inner voice saying to me, you don’t have to look for love any more! I knew that this was my Heavenly Father’s voice. Incredibly, His voice carried on. He said, in such loving and affirming tone, you are wonderful and precious to me my son’ I am very proud of you, you are lovely, this voice went on and on! Suddenly, I began to laugh, and then cry, for the first time, I knew I had heard my heavenly Daddy’s voice loving me, not doctrinally but experientially!
I received a lot of healing in my heart and forgiveness, I feel released from burdens and hurts and much free. I feel so good to share the Father's love. "I am very pleased to know and to feel in my heart the way how the Father God loves me. “God loves us the same way like Jesus” this is AWESOME!!
Since that time, Father God filled my heart over and over again with His love. I now love Him because He first loved me. I can now be the ‘real’ me instead of trying to be a ‘strong Christian’. With His help, I am growing to love Him with all my heart, with my entire mind, with all my soul and with all my strength and to pass His love on to others. Thank you, Father, I love you.
Many of us have had very complicated relationships with our earthly fathers as result were many have been very frightened about getting to know God the Father in a personal way. And sometimes even the word father makes one cringe! I had a very distant relationship with my own father and it took me longer than most people to get to know God as a personal and loving Daddy! It was a slow process, but what a wonderful gift! Whenever I go through trials now I can meet Him in that vulnerable, weak place knowing I am safe and His loving arms are always available to comfort me. Because I had practically no experience of a father holding me, it was very hard for me to ever place myself in this position of receiving from Him.
I found a greater level of intimacy with God that I believe has completely changed my understanding and experience of Him. Many of us have a good understanding of God as Father but that becoming an experience and a lifestyle is something completely different.
I am still encountering the Father's love in my life on a daily basis; I am experiencing a great passion to help many, to encounter this love. I am persuaded that everyone has a fundamental need of a heart revelation of the Father, instead of hoarding facts about God, everyone need an experimental encounter with the Fathers' love which can help one's relationship with the Father God.
My greatest passion is to see individuals, regardless of their religious affiliations encountering the love of God’s which will transforms their entire lives for ever, and helping many to experience healing from the past wounding circumstances of life so that they can minister or help from greater purity to others with the Fathers' love, and inspiring others to receive revelations of the Father and freely to be able taking His love to nations.
